Jim and Kim Taylor

Today was a little hard, it was the first time in about 14 years that I have not been able to celebrate my birthday with Jim. Beau cooked dinner for us this evening, my parents came over for Zac's football game and we all went out for lunch together. My heart aches for my children everytime I look at them I see a little bit of Jim in each of them. Sometimes I just don't know how we are going to make it through the next day but we do. We went to church last Sunday it was the first time we had been since Jim left us. Needless to say I think it was one of the hardest things for me. I cried because all I could think about was all the times we had sat there as a family. I still feel like this is just a horrible dream that I can't wake up from, but when I do everything is going to be back to normal. I don't know if this is my way with dealing or if it is a part of my grieving process. I am going to go to a "group" meeting Thursday night for grief support. One of my friends from work is going to be going with me. She has been before and said that it helped her alot. I know I don't get on here much never really did. I don't even know if anybody is still reading. I do get on here though when I need to let my feelings out. It helps to write everything down. Well I am going to try to get some sleep....good luck with that. It doesn't always come to me oh well one day it will.